She's country

Hello fellow bloggers. How's summer? Good? I thought so.

Mine is going good:) I've had a lot of surprises this summer. And one surprise is that I'm moving to town. Clara city to be exact. And I can't believe it, I mean, my mom has been talking to me about it and I went to a few open houses so I wasn't so shocked when she told me we were moving. What I was shocked about was when I realized how much I am actually going to miss living in the country. Ladies and gents, the country is soo amazing and here's why:

1) you can have ALL THE CATS YOU WANT! A cat farm! I have a cat farm! Granted some of the cats aren't so friendly, and some are kind of gross looking, but I love them. And I have no clue where I am going to put all of my 15 cats.

2) let me kick you a scenario, you're in the shower, then you get out of the shower, then you remember you need to get something from your car. Well you could seriously go outside completely naked and no one would see you! Well, besides your family. But that's it! That's the beauty of the country. Btw: I've never done that, I at least put on a towel. Just FYI.

3) Are you someone who eats a lot? Well I know I am, and my dad used to own pigs, and I had all I bacon I wanted. That's right. Are you someone who likes to exercise? Well, go for a run with no permanent destination! I have done this before and it's nice because you have beautiful scenery to look at, and, idk, it's just better than running in town. Take my word for it.

4) So, I know everyone of you has had one of those moments when you just wanted to get away, leave the stress, and just think about your life. And when I was stressed out, I would go through my grove, and sit on this huggeee rock, and just think about my life. My grove has a little tiny river thing running through it by this big rock and when I'm there, it almost seems like nothing else matters. Its so beautiful out there. And I guarantee your dog will folow you and keep you company, so that's a plus!

5) you can play all the loud music you want! Worried the neighbors might complain? What neighbors?!? The closest house to me is like a mile away! Cool right? I have jam sessions by myself all the time. Seriously. Oh and to snowball on top of that, night games are fun too, and bonfires, and fireworks. So cool.

See, the country is amazing, but I'm sure living in town will have some perks, like not having to waist as much gas driving to school, and other things like that.

I guess I just have to leave the country behind me, it was fun, I spent my whole childhood here, but a new chapter of my live is opening up, and that means I get to experience new things.

So, I'll keep you posted on how the town of Clara city is doing for me.

Peace out bloggers!

God bless :)

Messages.

Well, it's summer. Finally, right?

Actually, I always look forward to summer, and then it ends up turning to be not fun. Happens every year. But so far, it has been going good. And I hope everyone's summer for that matter is going good :)

So, I am blogging about messages today.
There is seriously nothing more powerful than God's messages. You just have to be open to hear them.

In the past year I have opened up a twitter account (which I am obsessed with) and I follow the daily bible and love like Jesus. And I swear, every time I am in a bad situation, they tweet something that exactly matches the situation that I am in. Seriously, I have been starting to look to twitter for my advice nowadays. (there is nothing wrong with that, as long as you keep the bible as a good source too!)

Now, here I am going to admit that I do have some lows in my life, I have moments where I want to run away, from everything. Like I feel everyone has abandoned me. I shut down, stop reading the bible and pray less. I put up walls, and close up the world around me.

When this happens, all I can think about is why aren't I happy? I mean, everyone has bad moments like these in their lives, and I know it could be much, much worse. But I can't just tell myself to feel better. It's not a switch you can turn on and off, and it's unreastic of me to think I can be happy 24/7.

See, God doesnt just love one part of you. He loves all of you. happy or sad. Calm or mad. He welcomes your scars, because they are apart of you. Every battle you have been through only means you are getting stronger.

He just wants you to be real. Don't run away from your problems, confront them. That is the only way you can heal. It's okay to break down sometimes, to ask the Lord for help. That's what he wants you to do.

Don't turn away from him, as I have done before. Trust him, show him every side of you, show him your scars, and I guarantee He will still love you. Be who He wants you to be. Be you :)

"I can either trust God or be completely miserable."

"when you feel abandoned by God, yet continue to trust him, you worship him in the deepest way possible."
-these were some of the tweets I got :)

Now to wrap up this crappy blog post, I am just saying, in the moments I felt lost, He never failed to send me messages, through twitter, songs, and people. He still loves and cares for me even when I am feeling down. And He feels the same way for you. Our God is an awesome God. :)

Fearless

We will not be afraid when evil comes our way
Though we walk through the darkness
Our God is our fortress
He's our strength
We will not be dismayed when our enemies rage
Though they rise up against us
Our God is our fortress
He's our strength

Fearless, make us fearless
Give us courage for You are with us
Fearless, make us fearless
Come and mark us with Your boldness
And make us fearless

We will not be afraid when evil comes our way
Though we walk through the darkness
Our God is our fortress
He's our strength

We will not fear the night
Your love is by our side Your love is by our side
No plague can overcome
The battle has been won we are victorious
No height, no depth can ever separate us
Your love Your love Your love will make us fearless

Fearless make us fearless
Give us courage for You are with us
Fearless make us fearless
Come and mark us with Your boldness
So come and mark us with Your boldness
And make us fearless

I love it when God sends me messages like these, when I turned on my radio this morning and heard this song. :)

Who moved?

Well my fellow followers, you haven't been getting much blogging from me lately, I'm actually surprised I am blogging right now. After many days of contemplating giving up on my blog I figured I might as well do a "fare-well" post to all of you, so I'm not just leaving y'all in the dust. Or maybe not, there might come a time when I want to blog again. Who knows?

But anyways, I have had many topics I wanted to blog about, but once I was done writing them, it felt something was missing. Like those drafts didn't seem real and dear to me. (I'm sorry if none of this is making sense to any of you) so, at 9:30 at night, while I was in the middle of doing my Spanish and jamming out to some "we the kings", I decided to just grab my iPad, and blog about the first thing that comes to mind. And that thing would be Jesus.

I have always been tight with the big man from above, but I feel like my relationship with God has grown stronger this year, well, up until about a month ago. You see, I shared something with two friends of mine, that I haven't told anyone ever before, and ever since that night, I feel different. Now I don't want to bore anyone with the details, so I'm not going to explain what I shared, but what I can say, is that i was/am growing apart from God.

All the signs were there, I was getting mad for no reason, I stopped reading the bible, I was sharing less and less in my youth group every week, and I was getting jealous of my friends when they talked about how close they are to God.

"if you are not as close to God as you used to be, who moved?"

I guess I just didnt want to think about the bad times I had, the problems I was delt with. I didn't want to solve anything because that ment that I would have to talk about my feelings, I guess I just wanted to go through the motions, and not talk about my problems. But what I didn't realize is that in order for me to do that, I would have to risk my relationship with God.

I know, it's terrible. I know some of you may think I was having unchristian-like actions, and I was, but you have to understand, when you are lost, and confused, you do strange things. You act out. You avoid problems. But then as I was having all of this occurring, the Lord never stopped trying to send me messages.
"let your walls fall to the ground, there is freedom waiting in the sound, where the light meets the dark" this was a song lyric from the first song that played in my pandora. After that I decided, I need a change.

Then I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote down a vow. I vowed to read the bible every night, to listen to just Christian radio for 30 days, and to get in contact with a few lovely people I had been distant from. I decided these things will bring my closer to God, and help set me straight.

I need to make a change in order to become the person I want to be.
"I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be" <3

Ps: sorry for the lengthy blog!

Hearing His words.

Today when I woke up, I did What I usually do, which is turn on my radio to 95.3. Only this time, my radio turned to 98.5, a Christian broadcast. I didn't know this at first, but I recognized a song and I was like "this isn't 95.3!" we'll anyways after the song was over, A guy came over the radio, and he said this verse: Give ear to my words, O Lord;    give heed to my sighing. Listen to the sound of my cry,    my King and my God,    for to you I pray. O Lord, in the morning you hear my voice;    in the morning I plead my case to you, and watch. For you are not a God who delights in wickedness;    evil will not sojourn with you. The boastful will not stand before your eyes;    you hate all evildoers. You destroy those who speak lies;    the Lord abhors the bloodthirsty and deceitful. But I, through the abundance of your steadfast love,    will enter your house, I will bow down towards your holy temple    in awe of you. Lead me, O Lord, in your righteousness    because of my enemies;    make your way straight before me. This was a passage from psalm 5:1. From David, he committed a sin, and asked for forgiveness. Then the radio broadcaster said this: "God is a forgiver, He Loves, cares for, and looks after you. The God that was there to forgive David is the same God that is here to forgive you. The God who was there to lift you up and bring you into His kingdom, is the same God who will help you through the trials of your life. He is always there for you. " Then after that, a song came on: Back to the wall, scared you'll fall What you going to do Day and night, Don't know why its like the worlds' against you You're praying for a break through There was a day When your faith couldn't be held down God was near enough to hear every word But somehow you wish He heard you right now Don't you know The same God who was with you then is with you now The same God who led you in will lead you out So take all the fear and doubt Go on and lay them down The same God, the same God is with you now Can't you see Everything happens for a reason There's a time, there's a place For every season He knows what's best for you So don't be afraid The same God who was with you then is with you now The same God who led you in will lead you out So take all the fear and doubt Go on and lay them down The same God, the same God is with you now Just keep holding on Oh keep holding on The same God who was with you then is with you now The same God who led you in will lead you out So take all the fear and doubt Go on and lay them down The same God, the same God is with you now After this I was just sitting there, thinking. How did the radio go to 98.5 when I didn't turn it? How come this message relates sooo well to what I'm going through right now? It was a message from God, He was telling me to listen, that He will love me no matter what. Always keep listening for Gods messages. His words are all around us, always keep listening. <3

I say you never had it so good

"you should appreciate what you have before time makes you appreciate what you had" This week, I can tell, has put everyone into stress mode. I mean hello, a five day week?? Come on people. And even I have had my fair share of rants this week about school, or anything else for that matter, but when I think about it, life has been awesome to me. And I think is all because of one little thing: appreciation. I appreciate all my lovely friends who have been there for me in my life, especially now. I want to send a shout out to my mother whom I know is reading this and I want to say thanks ma! For everything. I love you! I want to say I love my family, every one of them. They are simply amazing. And yes, school has been really stressful, and there are some of those days when absolutely nothing goes my way, and I'm thinking "really?? This sucks." but when that happens, I just have to take a step back and think about all the awesomeness. I have to appreciate all the small things because you never know when something or someone won't be in your life anymore. "can you tell me, how could it be any better than this?" Bye for now (:

Ugh

WARNING! This is a rant. I am just not having it these days. I have been suuppppeeerrrr stressed for one reason. School. Now I'm gonna break my reason down to two key ideas as to why I'm so frustrated!

Reason number one: my chemistry teacher. Don't get me wrong, deep deep deep down I know he is a nice person, but what's wrong with him? He doesn't teach. At all. And he thinks it is HILARIOUS! And I'm not laughing. At all.
Reasons number two: my computer apps teacher decided to spring on us a presentation that is due tomorrow. That's right ladies and gentlemen. Tomorrow. I am so screwed.

So here I am, typing this blog, just totally mad at everything right now, and I'm trying to think of something positive to say, cuz I don't want to let my fellow followers down! So I am going to say this. What doesn't kill you, will make you stronger.
Things like this will happen. You will get stressed out, disappointed, frusterated. It's a part of life. But those moments will make you so appreciate the awesome moments in your life.

So when you are feeling down, just look up to God, take things day by day. Because later on, you will get out of your rut, and the good moments in your life will become so much better.